Eli – Book Five ~ Triumph was released today! It is the series finale that you have been waiting for.
Eli has evolved sexually, from naíve and vanilla to a blossoming femboy slut. He’s intelligent, gullible, kind, and sexy… and he’s dealt with betrayal and lies, and meanness from friends, enemies and lovers.
In “Triumph”, Eli faces the most treacherous of obstacles. Blind infatuation, lust and love lead him into a danger he could never imagine. He learns who his real friends are; some of whom turn out to be the most unexpected people.
With each new adventure, Eli has learned about himself and life in general, and he’s gained wisdom.
But can wisdom alone help him choose between two lovers? Or can he keep them both?
The well-seasoned duo of B.J. Frazier and Jessie Spectre present a surprise ending whollop in the series finale… one which has crescendoed since the very beginning.
Make sure you read the entire set today!
sizeerrorprojection ~ Lovely quote by rubbub, B.J. He is quite eloquent during book club. I’m not surprised a lovely quote was provided. Dr. Rubbug’s analysis made me smile. So accurate and so dry. I could only imagine Lisa’s discontent. [I completely agree!]
rubbug ~ Thank you for the shoutouts, Mistress BJ! Idk what the book term is for it, but the tease for Eli 5 is so awesome! The title has me hopeful, too. It’s also cool to read how both you and Jessie feel now that you’re closing the story on Eli. Nice to know you have grown close while creating such an awesome series. [Jessie just talked to me about an interesting teaser/continuation the other day!]
cb-6000-lover ~ Neat that Claire is now appearing in your newsletter [She thinks it’s funny]
submissiveforDomme ~ I see what you’re doing with your blog. Here’s a special case study rubbug made, BUT it has spoilers so read the book first. I’m in to you. It’s always buy my books, read my books, someone might start to think writing and selling books is how you make your living or something. 🙂 Lisa Lies is on my short list of next book to consider reading anyway. 😀 [Yes, but rubbug made that special feature… I *had* to share with you AND warn about the spoilers. Let me know what you think of the book and his case notes extra :p]
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On one of my trips this month, I took Sally Bend’s “Holiday Tales” along. Probably not the best choice to be squirming as I flew but it’s the best chance to read.
The book is a collection of short stories, each from a different point of view, sexually speaking ~ straight, gay, trans. No matter the classification, the heat and humor are there.
It’s an excellent way to get into the holiday spirit… or cool down from the summer heat. Regardless of the reason, this book is sure to please!
That isn’t a new book. It’s not even fiction. It’s what I was a part of this past weekend.
Goddess Phoenix invited me to attend her Escape Retreat in California, co-hosted by Domina Dahlia. After I said “fuck yes!”, she texted me the flyer, in which she listed me as a special guest.
After listening to and/or watching interviews of the other professional dommes who would be there, I felt iffy about attending because, even though I’m kinky, I’m on the periphery of the empires these women have built.
My insecurities aside, I was excited to arrive at a palace perfectly fit for goddesses. I was greeted by Paul, an under-consideration submissive of Goddess Phoenix, who opened the door and greeted me as Goddess B.J. Goddess Phoenix greeted me with a warm hug and said I looked beautiful.
Mistress Manku, Goddess Phoenix, Domina Dahlia, Mistress Joi, and subs
I appeared in sweats, a Hozier T-shirt, and purple gym shoes (thanks to a b-day benefactor), dragging bags and carrying loads of anxiety. I didn’t feel beautiful, and I know I didn’t look beautiful. But y’know what? Her sincerity made me feel beautiful!
Behind Goddess Phoenix stood her collared slaves of over 10 years, Joe and Robin. She calls Joe her Domo Slave, who is the top of the slave hierarchy, and all others report to him before ever disturbing the Goddess. Also present was Vic, who is a CoatsMan in service to Goddess Phoenix. They wore collars and scanty formal attire, and they held silver trays. As I approached, one by one, they knelt and greeted me as Goddess B.J., and offered me a choice of beverage.
I was shown to my room (with a gift bag on the bed) and given a tour. The space was open, inviting and elegant.
The Women
Along the way, I met Mistress Joi and sub Ricky. She had a quick smile and said she loves to teach the newbies.
Then Domina Dahlia flew into the room, and greeted me so warmly, my residual fears vanished. She was the co-host and creator of the nearby dungeon we visited.
Goddess Manku had a goth vibe with a sadistic side, and was warm and personable.
Domina Dahlia, Goddess Phoenix and Goddess Manku at breakfast
Goddess Alanis had a bubbly effervescence and had no hesitation ordering her Slave Dave to serve her needs.
I knew from her website that Mistress Olivia Akula is 5′ but she had a presence that fills the room. Accompanying her was an adorable pup (with fur and four legs), and several two-legged subs.
Mistress Nicolette was a colorful expression of dominance with an infectious and mischievous grin.
Mistress Roz had a sweet, no-nonsense style, and she prefers to dom with positivity. She is rocking both coasts at the moment.
All assembled, there were 21 in the group, and we had time to chit-chat briefly before going to a nearby winery for a scrumptious meal. Ladies sat on the booth side with men opposite in chairs.
I’ve talked about the kink conventions I’ve attended (GWNN 2022,DomCon NOLA 2022) and conveyed how much of a community there is. Conventions, however, are structured–and they have to be. I spend much of my time in the vendor booth. Whatever downtime I have is devoted to “coming down”, taking notes, queuing smedia, sleeping, and getting ready for the next day.
The weekend retreat, in contrast, had built-in downtime. It was truly an escape where people in the lifestyle (or not) were treated like goddesses, and were allowed to breathe, let loose, hang out, and socialize.
These women are amazing people whose work outside of BDSM cover a broad spectrum: bartender, makeup artist, fashion designer, lawyer, erotica author, porn star. And they have incredible skills within BDSM… are gorgeous and fashionable… can order subs with a special glint… adhere to protocol… AND are full of love and energy.
Several photoshoots captured each woman’s fierceness, highlighted by the masterful eye of Xeta. Privacy was strictly respected, and all pictures and gifs in this blog post are shared with permission.
Websites are also included here (and on my Kinky Links page) with permission, so take your time exploring all of them. Then tell me what you think!
I was able to chat with the ladies individually and learn more about their private lives as well as what they enjoy in their professional lives. These women are fierce dominants but they’re also human. They care about what they do, pore over the creation of scenes and never stop evolving. They, too, expressed a feeling of community and looked forward to continuing the connections.
Even the condiments were fit for a Goddess
The subs and slaves made similar comments. Their time spent with veterans taught them how to be better service subs. I enjoyed book discussions with Goddess Alanis’ Slave Dave and Goddess Phoenix’s collared slave Robin.
Goddess Phoenix was the consummate hostess, ensuring everyone had what she needed. Her efforts were supported by all of the subs who took care of us. They fetched drinks, gave foot massages, collected ashes–both holding the tray and using their mouths sans tray–cooked and served food, assisted women in heels, and talked to us.
The Dungeon
Domina Dahlia’s private dungeon is beautiful in purple, teal and black, and offers a bed, three thrones (one with a cage under), a stage with a pole, a spanking bench, a BDSM table, and a cross, plus a wide array of implements. The goddesses also brought their own toys.
The room was smaller than the play party rooms at conventions but it was intimate, inviting, and arranged with such care that, even though several scenes were going on at once, no one felt crowded. In fact, some of the goddesses commingled, sharing and/or trading subs.
I sat on one of the thrones near the bed, where Domina Dahlia was lying. She and I had a good conversation before things got underway. To start her sessions, she has her sub kiss her feet. That night, she also had him kiss my boots. She casually dommed a sub and continued to talk with me. Another sub approached awkwardly, and she corrected him with specific orders. The orders were direct, and the sub obeyed and understood without being demeaned.
Goddess Alanis loves to perform CBT and, coincidentally, her slave loves to experience it. She made a flower of clothespins and had fun with the torture side of CBT. Slave Dave loved every moment. The obvious trust and connection the two of them shared brought a smile to those who watched it.
Goddess Manku was catlike in her sadistic play, using her nails, sitting on her sub, twisting nipples, spanking, and using implements. Again, the level of trust and happiness that emanated from the scene was a joy to see.
Goddess Phoenix sat on the throne upon the stage and had her slaves worship her feet. She did a short scene with Joe then took Robin across the room and locked him in the St. Andrew’s Cross.
Domina Dahlia was the hostess, along with her husband Mark. She explained the pieces of furniture, artwork, and what their objective was in creating the space. She also told me later that her mother had painted the walls, and a sub had hand-painted real-looking studs around the room.
The playtime ended naturally. The night continued in the hot tub at the estate… as you can see in the above clip.
Going out to dinner provided the chance to get to know people on a personal basis in a relaxed setting, which seemed a bit surreal when juxtaposed, only a couple of hours later, with everyone in full, fetish regalia, sessioning to the hilt. There was an accepted transition from stimulating conversation to varying degrees of nakedness without shame. And that’s what made the weekend unique.
All of the women were highly skilled in power exchange scenes, implement use and the like. Yet they worked together, talked together, shared stories, learned from one another, relaxed… and were free to just *be*. Many of them commented on how well they slept–not as a compliment to the beds but to the environment that Goddess Phoenix had envisioned and orchestrated.
A few random quotes:
Goddess Alanis and Mistress Joi w/subs
“Goddess Phoenix has ascended so she does not wake up; she comes down from the clouds” ~ James said
Goddess Manku, Domina Dahlia and Goddess Alanis w/subs
of Goddess Phoenix when she entered the pool area in her robe.
“As the slave erotically swept the pool out” ~ Robin said of himself while cleaning the pool.
“I love that I can go from the hot tub to the pool naked” ~ Goddess Alanis’ Slave Dave said of himself.
“I’m still humble; I’m not a bitch… other people say ‘my shit don’t stink’, but I know mine smells!” ~ Domina Dahlia said of herself.
“Goddess Phoenix makes wiping bird shit from the feeder appear sexual” ~ B.J. Frazier.
Domo Slave Joe
Joe told me the connection between himself and Goddess Phoenix runs deep, and he believes he has served her in previous lives. Even with a country between them, they sense how the other is feeling.
Domo Slave Joe’s tattoo of Goddess Phoenix
He wears her collar proudly but also respects her relationship with her boyfriend. The level of service he provides makes it apparent how much he loves and cares for his goddess. Everyone commented on how touching it was to see.
His entire life, he said he would never get a tattoo. That changed recently, when he was inspired to get one of the goddess herself. He pointed out three details. The flames contain feathers for her heritage. She is wearing a bear claw necklace that he gave her. And toward the bottom right of the photo are her initials GP.
As a special treat, on Saturday night, Goddess Phoenix whipped a phoenix onto Joe’s back. He revealed afterward that the experience was arousing. And when they do scenes, it’s intimate and sexual. It’s a way for them both to connect on a deeper level.
Special Performance
The following videos display snippets of Goddess Phoenix’s whipping expertise. Pay attention to her stance, form and artistry. Also, note the appearance of the phoenix on Joe’s back.
I first met and interviewed Goddess Phoenix at DomCon NOLA 2022. The interview is in the third review post. Every time I see and talk to her, my admiration grows. To watch her in action is nothing short of mesmerizing. She has a flare for performing yet she never loses focus on the task at hand.
A clear view of the phoenix
In between strikes, she’d run a hand over Joe’s back and check in with him–despite having played with him for a decade.
Aftercare between Goddess Phoenix and Domo Slave JoeGoddess Phoenix and Domo Slave Joe hug
After the phoenix was red and center, Goddess Phoenix took the time for aftercare. She wanted to clean the surface but Joe wanted to see what it looked like, blood and all. He allowed me to photograph and post his back.
Dual Floggers
The final things I want to talk about are selfish. As I sat in the dungeon, happy to observe, Goddess Phoenix approached me while Robin was on the cross. She asked if I’d like to participate, and then took my hand and led me to her space, extending a purple and black leather flogger to me.
Hers is a *flogger* (mine is a dollar store toy by comparison). She demonstrated how she initially touches the implement to her playmate’s body so he can feel it and prepare. Then she asked Robin if I could take over… and I talked to him to determine his pain level. He is a true pain slut.
I flogged him for a bit, then I was ready to return to my seat. But Goddess Phoenix approached with the flogger’s twin, and she showed me how she strikes. She showed me how to hold the handle and twist the strands to prepare for an overhand attack. When I got the hang of it, she said we were going to give him 10.
I stood on Goddess Phoenix’s right as we moved in tandem to double-flog Robin ten times. The sheer force of our impacts was exhilarating. But it doesn’t compare to performing with the goddess herself. It was my Disneyland moment.
A Loss of Virginity
There were slave games on the agenda but the storm had other plans. Many people had to leave early. To reward Robin for superb service, Goddess Phoenix bent him over a spanking bench at the house, and treated us to a caning show.
Music was playing, and, as she got more into the scene, she swatted Robin’s ass in time with the beat. Her body moved with the rhythm, and she marked him with several canes. Then she asked if anyone wanted to try.
Goddess Alanis popped up and provided her own show and display of mastery.
Goddess Manku said she was waiting to be picked up and was winding down but wanted to know if I would do it. I’ve never used canes, and Goddess Phoenix offered to teach me.
There’s no way I could refuse, even if I wanted to. She told me what each cane was as she handed it to me, and told me to feel the way it moved. Also, she instructed me to get into a comfortable stance. Goddess Phoenix then outlined the areas to strike and what areas to avoid.
I started small and thin, taking my time to touch the stick to the ass. Then I gave the air a few swats before getting into my stance and striking. I’m not sure what I liked better; the striking or the instructions.
…until Goddess Phoenix handed me a bull cock cane. It had weight, length and girth. And when I struck, Robin flinched.
And I loved it.
I did a happy dance and shouted, “I did it!” The other women cheered.
I struck a few more times before relinquishing the slave to Goddess Alanis.
Goddess Alanis, Goddess Manku, Domina Dahlia, and Goddess Phoenix told me I had done a great job, and looked great doing it. And it felt incredible to strike and cause a flinch. But it wouldn’t have been possible without Goddess Phoenix’s careful instruction and constructive feedback. I thanked Robin for taking my caning virginity. 🙂
As with previous descriptions of kink conventions, the level of acceptance I received was humbling. But to observe the interactions of everyone was amazing. There is a definite community within kink. This weekend escape, though, was one of family.
You can’t choose your real family but you can choose your kink family. And I’d choose all of these women to be in it.
To you, the readers ~ if this retreat sounds like a fantasy come true, stay tuned. Goddess Phoenix plans on hosting retreats that will include existing or wannabe service subs. You could get trained by Goddess Phoenix herself and make your fantasy a reality.
To everyone at the Escape ~ thank you. It was a pleasure to meet you. Thank you for your acceptance, for confiding in me, for laughing with me, and for teaching me. I enjoyed getting to know you, and I look forward to seeing you in the future! *hugs*
To Goddess Phoenix ~ thank you for creating the ultimate escape, and thank you for including me. You are an amazing woman, and I feel privileged to know you. *hugs*
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